Feeling the Love...

I am looking out the window of our office. The sunshine is gorgeous and there's a cool breeze that's been blowing all day. I have been working on a care plan for school/clinical and have had to stop and take a break; a much needed break. Over the past few weeks I have been focusing on prioritizing tasks & my roles in life so that maybe, just maybe things can run a little smoother and I can stop being late to every appointment, event, etc in my life! This is a constant juggling act! Trying to understand my role as a mother of a very stubborn 6 1/2 month old (very stubborn) and asking God to help me better understand my role as a wife has proven to be a daunting task indeed! And take it from me, when you ask God to search your heart, you better brace yourself for what He may find. I will say that through this journey of self-evaluation I discovered that I had lost focus of just how much I really love my husband. I mean really...like giddy as a school girl, love him. It's so easy to get wrapped up in day to day madness (not madness in a derogatory way but just the pleasantries of life) that romance and lovey feelings can be pushed aside for what, at the time, feels like more important things. SO WRONG! I have had so much joy today in remembering why I fell in love with Kevin in the first place. So, I urge you to reach out today and hug or kiss or whatever floats your boat, your husband or your wife even if you only have a second...

Kevin is my best friend. Seriously. I share everything with him and pretty much always have. This is a big deal because I am a pretty closed person these days. I wasn't so much as a teenager but as I have gotten older I find that I have a harder and harder time maintaining "girlfriends" because of my inability to open up. Kevin sees through that and he pushes me to be honest. We have gotten so close over the past 4 1/2 years of marriage. We've been through a lot and our marriage is stronger because of it. He's there. He's present as a husband and present as a father. He's a gem. He works hard for our family and loves me and Jacob like crazy.

This is how it should be with your husband, so a part of me feels a little redundant posting that I find completion (a little Jerry Maguire, I know) in the man that I married but I have seen too often that this isn't the case in a lot of marriages. So I post this today to say that I am blessed with a sweet family and a loving husband. The End.

Here are some pictures of us from PCB last year. The day before we left for this vacation I took a pregnancy test and found out we were having a baby. This was the best vacation I've ever had. We had so much fun! I love looking at these because it reminds me of the fear/excitement we were feeling at those moments...

-K